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leave me an anonymous comment pouring your heart out. say anything. tell me your stories, your secrets, those things no one ever asks but you wish to tell. tell me abut your love, your hate, your indifference, your joy. tell me about what's inside of you when you're reading through these entries on your friends list, and tell me why you continue to come back here. tell me anything.

post anonymously. speak honestly, because there isn't any censure here. post as many times as you like. one faceless wonder to another.

and then, pass it on.

ETA: Back from dinner. The confessional is now open.

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Not anonymous. Just wanted to say hi and type this in your direction:

*huggles*

*tackle hugs*

You're so cute. *floves*

How're things? Well, I hope. I keep thinking about your cool job. Hard work, but cooool.

It's the hardest work I've ever done in my life, and I confess I have trouble with the expectation of coming across smart five days a week. I know it's the combination of six classes and four preps, but I fuck up at least a couple of times a week. I hope for a less hectic schedule after this semester, but I don't know if it's a realistic expectation.

Still publishing poetry. That's of the good, at least.

Kinda lonely, despite the multitude of students and spouse and child. Kinda very lonely, in fact. *shrugs* But I'm happy you're here to offer flove. :)

Much love back to you, Kirsten.

I confess I have trouble with the expectation of coming across smart five days a week.

Who wouldn't? Thank heaven you have us! You can be as stoopid as you like in here. *g*

I know it's the combination of six classes and four preps, but I fuck up at least a couple of times a week.

Not sure I believe you - are you sure it isn't all in your head? And even if you do, it's not to say that anybody even notices, or even cares, given your schedule. That's brutal.

I'm glad you're publishing poetry. You're such a poet it's not even funny. You can tell just by the way you write.

And you can cross that "f" off the "flove". I want to send you Newcastle Brown Ale! From Newcastle! But I think the bottle'd break, so that's no good. *g*

I'll get out of your meme, now. *hugs*

*hugs back and drinks virtual ale toast in your honor*

i had sex for the first time five weeks ago, and anal sex for the first time two days ago. i love him and i believe he loves me, but some quiet part of me is terrified that it'll end eventually and i'll regret the whole thing.

i say i have a religion, but i don't know what's right or wrong any more.

(i haven't told anybody; everybody i know would either think me silly for making a big deal of it, or think me wrong because i did it at all.)

I don't think you're silly or wrong, and I don't have religious feelings about sex -- well, other than my pagan feelings which boil down to the rede: "An it harm none, do as ye will." That translates to "as long as no one gets hurt (including you)...."

I understand terror about regret, though. I hope it turns out well for you. *biggest hugs*

Hey, I know this wasn't aimed at me, but I read it and really felt for you.

Sex is a very personal thing, what's right for your friends isn't necessarily right for you. The responsibility that places on a person to chose what is right for them can feel a little bit overwhelming at times.

What my advice to you would be, as someone who's been in a similar situation, is to focus on how you feel now, since the future is unpredictable. If it feels very right to you, and you're being careful (ie,condom use), then you're probably doing okay. If it feels wrong to you, make adjustments until it doesn't. That's the best I've come up with so far, and I hope it helps!

I don't really share with anyone, and so there's no one in the world who really knows me.

I understand the reluctance. I'm not exactly a trusting soul myself. My daughter asked me today for help with a problem with a friend. Husband told her she should ask someone who actually *has* friends.

So glad to have the flist. So grateful for all of you.

Offering *hugs* and an ear, albeit an anonymous one.

Pardon me saying so, but what a bastard.

Yeah. Might explain a bit of my reluctance to trust. *shrugs* But I assure you I fight back when he's an asshole.

Everyone thinks I don't read their journals, but I do.

Every entry. I just don't comment because sometimes I don't have anything to say.

*nods* You're a truly dedicated ljer. I'm glad to have you reading my journal. What a gift from you to all of us. Thank you.

*huge hugs*

i can't stop being a bitch to my ex-boyfriend- I get mad at him for no good reason, snipe at him, alternating with being really friendly to make up for it. It's fucking with my head and my friends are completely sick of me talking about it.

As we're anonymous here and I have no backstory I could be way off, but I bet if you're being a "bitch" to him it's for a very good reason or even an entire set of reasons. Sounds like unresolved issues. It's not a phenomenon restricted to exes. My sister came through town a few weeks ago, and I couldn't help sniping at her. She's excellent at pushing every button I have, though I don't know that it's something she means to do. She might do so accidentally, but it still stings like hell, so I sting back.

*biggest hugs*

I obsess over people at times. Just in my head, not in a stalkery way. I take them and I imagine stories about them, dialogues, etc., this only happens when a person really fascinates me.

I also think I am more or less incapable of bonding with someone when I haven't gone through something stressful with them.

"I obsess over people at times. Just in my head, not in a stalkery way. I take them and I imagine stories about them, dialogues, etc., this only happens when a person really fascinates me."

I did this tonight over some people brand new to me at a party. I imagined them in an unconventional relationship. By the end of the night, it seemed I'd imagined just right.

"I also think I am more or less incapable of bonding with someone when I haven't gone through something stressful with them."

*nods* I think that used to be true for me, too, but lately stress seems to strain relationships.

Glad you're here.

*hugs*

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